Titanic quote, but no Titanic picture because it's way past my bedtime and I'm really sleepy. Anyway, I wanted this quote to represent maintenance and sustainability. When I first started this 16 Weeks to Healthy thing, I was excited to be in the rec center taking classes, running outside, and physically feeling every minute of activity and the subsequent soreness (well, most minutes of it). But I wondered how long can I keep this up?
As I go through KNH 654, I'm realizing more and more about myself and my behaviors. I've been at this for seven and a half weeks, with some hints of slowing down, but otherwise, I've been enjoying the experience and the results, or what I think are the results. We discussed mindfulness and living in the present briefly today. The article we read to prepare for this class really got me thinking about how to keep up these levels. Of course, we ought not be thinking about the future, but be living in the present. Regardless, I would like to attend more to my experiences, particularly those with exercise, as they happen. A lot of times, I'd like to dissociate because my hips are hurting or plan and reminisce because I'm bored, but I would like to do a better job of experiencing the present.
Week 8 Monday and Tuesday
Monday, I took the day entirely off. I didn't even go to abs. Class ended early and I got a ride home, so I stayed there and relaxed. It was nice.
Tuesday, I ran five miles with Janae. I hadn't run with someone for a longer distance for quite some time. It was also nice to run with a new person. I typically don't let many people run with me - just Kim and my brother mainly. I'm not quite sure why this is... I would imagine something along the lines of my competitive nature and insecurities about the discrepancy between the kind of runner I was and the kind of runner I am. To be concise, not being in the present.
Emily and I also went to TRX and spinning. TRX was really tough. My arms are already starting to feel sore, so this is a good sign. And I was a little disappointed with something I did in spinning. I recognize that we cannot always be at our mentally toughest, but I quit early on the third of three sprints in a series. I could explain how the situation unfolded, but that would just sound like excuses to me. But, as we tell our kids at summer camp, GOMO - get over it and move on.
This was one was powerful. The judgment thing. Judgment takes us out of the moment. I think it was the Lion King: "You have got to put your past behind you" or something like that. Tricky business.
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