What Drives You?

New semester new goals

That last summer project did not work out so well.

As much as I want to start more, I don't think I can without first working on the inner workings of myself. At some point in the break between semesters, I became aware of some problematic feelings I have pretty consistently. Reluctantly, I am in the process of seeking professional help, which is tough being an almost professional myself.

What drove me to that action was refusal to settle with just scraping by. Things feel just "okay" much of the time. Much of the time, things feel terrible. And sometimes, things feel wonderful. The thing is, I'm in a place where things should feel wonderful, "feel" being the key word. Things are wonderful. Tomorrow I'm starting my final year of graduate school, my new job is much more rewarding and safe, and shortly after my last post, my then-boyfriend became my now-fiance. In a time like this, I deserve more than to just feel okay on a good day.

Tomorrow is the first day of a new 16 Week project for balance and stability.